I thought I was scared straight. With my recent behaviors, I guess not. I simply can not make myself go to the gym or study for the CPA exam. I mapped out a nice plan which even included tv time. So why can't I follow it? I figure it's because I'm not really ready to change. I say I want to, I make steps in the right direction, but I never follow through.
Lately I've been coming up with every excuse in the book as to why I don't feel like getting up and going to the gym. Part of my new plan was to go the strength training group classes instead of doing it on my own. I realized why I didn't do it in the first place. I don't like going to classes by myself, or I feel like everyone is looking at me, that and the classes are too crowded. Silly I know. But I feel comfortable when I go to a class with my sister and she's the sweaty person next to me.
I took the day off of work yesterday because I am in danger of losing vacation days because I have almost accrued the maximum. I accomplished nothing but sitting on my rear all day, eating what I shouldn't I already made my free day Monday. Dinner wasn't bad though. I finally cooked the chicken I had been marinating for the past two days. It was pretty good, a little dry (my fault) but good. I had a baked potato with it but for some reason they were hard even after I cooked them a little longer. Oh well I'm stuck eating it for the next 3 days.
I got a new associate today at work and I have been talking to her all day long not accomplishing anything. Maybe when the new associate comes it will cool down. It has too because we don't have very much time to complete the audit.
Hopefully I can put in a better effort tomorrow.