I am in desperate mode. I tried to get nutrisystem assuming every place has a microwave, but of course this place does not, neither at the affiliate (where I am working) nor the hotel. Okay that is almost a lie because I haven’t tried the hotel’s system yet, but it is not looking good and I do not know what to do. I am hurt to my core. I thought that I finally had something that would make me fit into my wedding dress. Okay now my fantasy is to lose so much weight that they have to reconstruct the dress. Maybe I wanted to do too much. Lindsay said that they have healthy things for lunch. I say hog wash. Okay barely, but I am going to have to devise a plan for three weeks. The only thing I can think of is hitting the gym extremely hard.

So far nothing here has been good except for the scenery. The hotel is freezing cold and they have turned off the heat, and the heater they gave me keeps shutting down. The other fun thing was driving on the other side of the high way. I think I forgot to mention at the beginning of my rant is that I am in England for work for three weeks. I miss home, I miss my baby (my fiancé), and I am just overwhelmed. I have so much to do on my mind that I will have to set priorities to them.

I guess I have to give an update of my life because I have been away so long. Well I was 217.4lbs when I left two days ago for the UK. My new job has its perks and some let downs. I’m getting married in just over three months. I’m still studying for the CPA exam, but I have finally passed two parts, just two to go. That’s it in a nutshell. Everything has made me feel so unsteady. I am no longer comfortable with my position in life ever since I lost my job. I need to really get my life on track and somewhere I can be comfortable. My fiancé makes me comfortable, but that is only one area of my life. That is why they always say never count on someone else for your happiness. They can fix everything only one area.

I am also sleep deprived. I couldn’t quite sleep on the plane. I couldn’t sleep in the freezing cold of the hotel during the afternoon. I went to bed at midnight, didn’t sleep well, and the woke up at 6am and finally felt tired enough to sleep, but had to get up a 7am, which is the equivalent of 2am. That means even though I have been up all day and have 4 hours of work left my body is telling me it’s only 8:30am and I need a nap. The time difference is killing me. It is 5 hours ahead. Hopefully tonight I will sleep good and I’ll be fine.

So about my hiatus, I didn’t mean to, I just realized that I only write on my blog at work and hate to even really look at a computer at night. But I am writing this post, at work, in the hopes that I will post it when I get back to the hotel. The TV isn’t that great here so I will be looking for distracters.

Until next time people!