I finally took pictures. And get exactly what I was afraid of. That I have gone backwards in my progress. The funny thing is I know that I did, I know that I gained weight. but I guess what I hadn't realized is how much fat vs. muscle I gained. Technically I am the same weight in both pictures but I must definately have had more muscle in the first.
I can't let this get me down. I know what I have have to do. I must get control of my eating. I got the gym thing down, so it must be the other part. I have some competition coming my way so I really need to get in gear.
My sister she is my competition. Granted she was just pregnant, but after having the baby she is already back under 200lbs. Yes, I call her competition, but I am routing for her to win. She is suppose to be smaller than me. I want her to be confident again. I want her to be happy especially with all that just happened.
Overall my whole family is doing well health wise and with everyhing else. I couldn't ask for anything more.