I know when I started nutrisystem what I was purchasing was the right to give away my right to choose. But traveling adds more unforeseen choices. Maybe unforeseen is the wrong word because I knew there would be battles, but not to this level.

Not too long ago I had a serious war going on in my head. In my hotel room I do not have a microwave. The only way to do it is to ask someone it the kitchen to do it for you. The first thing that comes is the embarrassment. Then there is the in room menu that has so many entrees calling your name. I looked through the menu with the intention of ordering, because I embarrass so easily. It's funny I act as if people can't tell that I am fat and need to lose weight. I even picked out what I really wanted, but then it hit me. Do I really want to do this to myself. Do I really want my efforts of trying to eat right to be in vain, or should I say paying to eat right to go down the drain.

Then I thought of me really wanting to be smaller in my wedding dress and how I want J to be so proud of me when he sees me coming down that isle. I know he would love me anyway, but I want to maintain that happiness by being happy with myself to pour out onto him. I don't want him to be tired of me always being on a strict diet and being mean to myself.

I said all that to say that the struggle in my head was real. I really felt the tugging wanting to go both ways, giving all of the excuses and arguments in the world. In the end, I got over my embarrassment and brought my food down to the kitchen. Now I am so happy with myself I danced all around the room. I just have to remember to keep making the right decision and things will happen. Now tomorrow I must make the right decision to go to the gym...lol.

Until then people