This morning I am tired. I didn?t wake up naturally because I had to get up early to have some blood work done. In order to participate in the dance program at church I must have a doctor fill out a form which meant I must have a physical. Normally these things go very quickly so I never do them because I feel like what is the point. Well this time it was different.

First I was debating whether or not to tell her everything because it would hurt me if she told me that I couldn?t participate in the program. Then again if I didn?t and something is really wrong with me it would only hurt me in the long run. So I told her everything, normally I would forget the small things, but not this time.

I forgot to mention that it was my first time seeing this doctor and the last time I had a physical was 2003 maybe 2004. So I ran down my list of ailments. First, my knees bother me from time to time. I had an MRI done in 2002 and they said that there was nothing wrong except that I have slight arthritis in my knees ?but it shouldn?t be causing me pain?. Then, there are the pains that I have been feeling in my chest, sharp pains that take my breath away. And lastly, (sorry for the grossness) I see red stuff maybe blood in my #2. That?s all I?ll say about that?lol.

Well because of the heart thing I had an EKG performed and then she also did a sonogram of my heart, which I must say was pretty cool to watch. She found nothing wrong on each, so the last test is for me to have an EKG stress test, hopefully all goes well. That?s on Thursday.

I had blood work done this morning to check my sugar levels, thyroid, liver, cholesterol, and I few other things I think. We should know the results of those in a day.

The cherry on top is that I have so much wax in my right ear that she was surprised that I could even hear?lol. That appointment is on Friday. Well by the end of this week I should be fixed/diagnosed and hopefully cleared to dance.

I finally weighed in this morning and I think I?ve been the same weight for the last 2 weeks or so 232.4lbs. I must say I?m grateful and disappointed at the same time. I am grateful that I didn?t gain weight, but I?m upset with myself that I didn?t do anything to help myself lose weight. I have been watching what I eat a bit, but not enough. I have some pretty aggressive goals, so I must get to work.

My husband is helping me, he made an awesome dinner last night for the most part was healthy. He?s trying to become my inspiration. It helps, but I have to simply get up and move. Here?s to making better choices today.